Away

2010-03-11T16:42:00.002+08:00

In the days to come, you will be long forgotten if you dont make a sound. Your presence will be replaced. Your voice will not be heard.
Then you feel, you stand nowhere, helplessly because you've been left behind by the ones you thought they were friends.
They make shopping trips, without you; movie screening, without you; chats, without you. And it's too late to bring everything back.
Because, you chose to be invisible, tolerant, silent. So think, what are you to them nice when you once treated them as friends.
Maybe, you're one who never existed.

Put yourself into other's shoes. What you've said, done, wrote; be sure you have not hurt anyone indirectly. It may seem superficial to you. But it's not the same to everyone.

I have friends. But do these friends think the same way as me.
I treat them as friends. But do these friends treat me the same way.

You are what you are. You have what you should get.
Everything you are, it's what's meant to be.

Then again, choose not to hate. Just keep it, silently.

Disappointed.Thoroughly.
Not The Time To Go Back Anymore.
You no longer belong to the past, because you've been expelled.

2010-02-27T15:25:00.000+08:00

Lunch + dinner with these ppl (includes cheryl!) Some time ago @ lot one
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2010-02-26T21:26:00.000+08:00

Who are they now? What are they now? I cannot tell the difference. Friends or strangers or ... Makes me hate it. I thought... At the very least, grant each other's wants. But why.. Had it to be me, always? I don't like making sacrifices for things that I like to do lor! ...
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2010-02-18T16:47:00.002+08:00

there's another 3guys and a girl missing from this photo. but 10S11 is still awesome! of cos' the ogls were great! and it's a wonderful thing that i still talk to my ogls, even those in charge of my mg! haha. and my mg-mates were equally great! haha. pj's rlly fun and nice. my tennis friends are great too! but tennis training is a little tiring. and school's a little boring at the moment with lectures and tutorials recapping. and this includes insufficient sleep too! and i'm still hogging on to my lappy. i need to start reading up my lecture notes for econs sooooon.. cos' i fell asleep while reading it last night! hiakhiak. i think i'm being rather complacent now!!!!!!! ughhhhhh!!!! ):

2010-02-05T18:19:00.000+08:00

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2010-02-04T15:27:00.002+08:00

school's kindda' great today. had cip but the response was kindda' . . . not as overwhelming as what we get in the past. i guess it's cos' it's a working day.. we got split up and my group's great! haha. easy work done. and our ogl treated us drinks haha. then everybody got a little whiney cos' of the waiting issue and additional labour and stuff like that. back to school after the truck came and some cheers and piano playing and getting some chocolates from our ogl before heading back. my ogls are great! but.. today's the last day ): but.. we'll still be having ogls next week but.. perhaps a different one. i just hope my new og group will be enthu and fun! ^^ headstart programme tomorrow.. awww... thank god tmr's friday! time passes so quickly!

2010-02-03T18:50:00.003+08:00

Today's awesome! Learning of new songs and cheers in the morning! Yay, no boring talks. HAHA! Followed by MG outing, but we stayed in school to play captains' ball, which was fun yet tiring. and i cannot stand the heat! cmi. i nearly blackout or something that i end up taking alot of breaks in between and my wonderful mg-mates took over my role while i just stroll along and aid them in the shooting and passing haha. the had mac tgt, was great! but bloated ttm. and then cca trials!

went for touch rug. and tennis trials but i love tennis more. touch rug made me so filthy cos i kept landing and i guess, rolling on the field, which was mad dirty and smelly. haha. but fun! i still enjoy but the sun was too much! ): at last all trials are over for me! ^^ cip tomorrow! :DD

2010-02-02T15:48:00.003+08:00

K, i'll just do a brief update because Jo's ohw to my house right now, like.. she's on the bus already! So i gotta be quick!

k, right from the beginning... i think most people should have known how much i've gotten for my Os. fyi, my raw scores are 12 and 9, l1r5 and l1r4 respectively. of cos' i must say, i am really happy. hard work has finally paid off. if you knew me, u would know how much hard work i've put in and i've never seen vast improvements at all. disappointment after another, and at last.. it's good news now. i believe hard work do pays off, although i think i haven't worked hard enough. but i promise i'll continue working hard. and yes, i'm posted to pioneer jc. pj's really fun, people there are great, but teachers.. not all, maybe my mgt is the best among all. haha. K, i'll edit it again omw.. if i have the time. i must leave now!
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so as i mentioned, yes, i'm in pj now and enjoy life there! the great thing in there is that: we'll be having our orientation until next thursday! wtf. imagine how much fun we'll have while all other jcs in sg have started lectures! haha. and we've got camp too! right now, it's just talks then games for us. like last week, we had mass dance which was.. AWESOME! my partner wasn't that..bad.. haha. and of cos' icebreaking games too! unlike today.. we had boring talks in the morning! we had to suffer in the cold for 2hours and i could hardly breathe already. it was mad freezing cold lo! then games after break! haha. and tmr we'll be having out mg outing! ^^ then cca trials.. idk what 2 join up till now ):

2010-01-30T14:27:00.002+08:00

2days since school started. it was definitely a rush but.. school was fun afterall! i must say school's way better than what i expect! haha. my mg-mates are reallyreally funny and enthusiastic. mass dance was definitely fun and one of my mg-mates made me laughed like mad. haha. but.. it's was all so tiring. i couldnt help but to fall asleep during the subject talks on day 2. omg. really tired. but thank god, subject talks were optional for us. haha. school kindda end early everyday. i'm loving school! pj's a really fun place to be! ^^

2010-01-26T10:17:00.002+08:00

i must say, ytd was really fun! haha. mindcafe with the usual people but it was closed until 2. so J and i watch the 4 of them play L4D 2 ._. 30minutes of lan, and we went to mindcafe. walauzxz, so empty. Haha. fun! usual games.. then everybody arrived. dinner at plaza sing. then movie at the cathay, "law abiding citizen". i would say it's an awesome movie! 4/5 only if u like this kindda movies la. then ben&jerry's for somebody's belated birthday. haha. photos up soon. then took the bus back tgt. homesweethome.

two more days before school starts ): one more day before release of posting results ):
i wish everybody luck okay? ^^

2010-01-23T17:45:00.002+08:00

Should i look forward or not? ): I should start looking forward to school now. Made the choice and i can't regret now.

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2010-01-19T23:48:00.001+08:00

Omg! Guess who I saw @ cwp today! Lol. Funny ttm! Anyway, at last I went out after a million years! I had foot reflexology today again, and at last I went out to get materials and sent my stuffs for printing. I feel bad for delaying this shit. Ughh. Shit, idk how much will my bill be this month cos I've been surfing the net ttm through phone and receiving lots of pushmail. Sigh. I hope it's not that much. Oh, results will be out next week too. Sigh. A bad day..

At last I cleared my books and notes. At last.. I seriously thought I might retain so I couldn't bear to dump it up to date. But at last, it's cleared! It took me 3 days, I think. Dump all the useless stuffs and packed the useful notes for my dear cousins! Hahaha! And of cos the books to younger cousins, I rlly rlly hope they won't dump those books lor! Esp. Those physics books! Those were like treasures lor. Hmm.. I should actually give it to the school teachers ley. Wouldn't it be more useful?... Tsktsk. I just hope my cousins would keep it at least. Else, I'd cry lo!! I sound damn exaggerating! But who would bear it lor. Seriously, imagine u spent like at least 500bux on books just for a year or actually lesser then just dump after using plus the books have provided great help! Sigh. So be it... I'm sad ): HAHAHA!!!

I need 2 get a lot if stuffs before school starts! Rearrange the room, add new funitures... At least I've gotten myself lots of bags and shoes! Shall put them into good use! Heihei. Ah! And a planner!!!!

Walau, I sound like ... U get what I mean, I know.
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2010-01-14T14:29:00.001+08:00

Perplex. Confuse. Stuck.
I cannot make up my mind and advices never seem to help at all. Jc or Poly. I gave my name to one of the poly lecturers yesterday, it is one of my choices but will it be a wrong choice. I have no idea. I wanted to submit my choices badly but i might regret. i prefer another site.

2010-01-13T14:24:00.001+08:00

I'm letting go of my Vaio pocket already, interested parties lemme know please. Email to emilyn-27@hotmail.com Letting it go at, at least 1k. Bought it at 1.5k ++ really don't bear to let it go lor. But it's been so long since I bought it and I have only used it less than 50 times ley! Rlly worth the price lor. Somemore inside got a lot of downloads alr lor. Definitely worth more than 1.5k. Sigh. Time to let it go. I think I'll be letting go my NDS lite too ):

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2010-01-06T12:47:00.004+08:00

Overdued photos up at the same site again! Too lazy to upload it all at here.
Results will be out next week already!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! OMFGGGGGGGGGGGGG!

Out with the girls yesterday, no the day before. Caught a movie before heading for my shopping time with Yanshan. Extremely happy cos' bought new stuffs again, but i spent 100bux again. Sigh. Sis brought home my Wii set last night, finally! Happy to the max lor! And there goes my pay already ): 350bux for wii and 300bux for mom, that's way more than my pay lor. i wonder where the money actuall come from. HAHA! Sigh, no more shopping anymore. All my money goes back to zero again, sigh. tsktsk. i have to live with my allowance again ):

Out tomorrow again with the usual people, hopefully it's fun. HAHA! More pictures up sooooon!

P.s/ my dear cousins, get the url from me to take a look at the photos and videos!

2010-01-02T12:41:00.003+08:00

More photos coming up sooooon...
Went to PartyWorld ytd @ CityVibe with cousins. Yay, finally i have the chancee 2 eat uncle sam's kitchen claypot rice! I wna eat moreeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee! HAHA. Back to grans' place around 9 and play truth or dare but we played dare all along and stupid dares are to be done. Gg over later again for stayover and omggggg i haven't get myself prepared!

2010-01-01T13:00:00.002+08:00

It's 2010 now. A new beginning, a brand new start, again a new phase of life. 6 years of primary education went by smoothly. 4 years of secondary education went by, ups and downs. Here comes the journey of tertiary.. ): i really miss school. But.. goodbye to 2009.

2009 has been filled with lots of stuffs. The crazy times i've spent, i'll never forget! ^^

Kk, enough.
If you've been following my twitter you'll know what happened last night. Heihei. Was @ Khatib for countdown but before that, we caught the treasure hunter. Don't expect much from the movie. Zzz.

So @ Khatib, it's was crowded like mad and thank god we were in the FRONT! Haha. So explains why my photos could be taken so close up (i mean those that i posted on twitter) Photos will probably be up next week and as usual same place, same site. The site where i'll post all the photos. Definitely not here. So ask me, if u wna know. And back home @ 2.

2009

2009-12-31T14:45:00.001+08:00

2009 has been a great year 2 me. Played hard, mugged hard and had uncountable fun times. Jokes filled up my days. Laughing @ others may be bad but we weren't the only ones who made a joke out of it. Recalling back, it was still as funny as ever. Especially the act out scene by someone. Haha. Confirn funny but it was an inside joke. Times have been tough to mug hard amongst ourselves, 2 compete 2 strive 4 the better for ourselves. Have been tough but we've overcome it at last. And now we're enjoying while waiting. To thank that I have my girls with me all these while: mugging, playing, joking, bbqing. More 2 come in 2010. 2009 is and was wonderful but 2010 will be better. I miss school, friends and my girls. Of cos' those teachers who aided in our mugging period ^^ .... Tbc after the countdown tonight..
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2009-12-30T14:56:00.002+08:00

Sent my clothes for alterations and now i'm too lazy to collect it back. Ugh. Pedicure appointment yesterday. Luv my nails to the max again! Too bad i could find navy blue color, so stuck to dark blue instead ): Nonetheless, i still luv it 2 the max! & yep, i uploaded photos of my nails on twitter!

New year's eve tomorrow and we haven't got any plans up 2 date ): Whereshallwegoto? i'm left with only 90bux to survive till 2010 ): Have 2 get alot of stuffs too! Can't wait to meetup with my girls and go for mega shopping again!!!!

i feel like having some nights spent out rather than cooping at home. considering on a cruise trip, anybody? D:

2009-12-29T14:43:00.000+08:00

gg 4 my pedicure appt soooon~ should i do medicure toooo? back with photos when i'm free again.

2009-12-29T14:27:00.003+08:00

Stayover @ West Coast since Christmas night till Sunday. Fun! We had the entire house to ourselves but it was really scary because there's alot of doors that we have to lock if we were to leave the house. Thank god there was unlimited supply of food and drinks! Heihei. Cooked maggie and opened canned food on the first morning. And uncle came back to bring us to visit Lucky! Then back again.............................................................

The Chocolate Fondue Challenge! HAHAHA!
(Caution! caution! caution!) Do not watch if you will vomit easily.

The following video displays unsightful scenes.

EXTREMELY UNGLAM VIDEO ):

Had my new haircut yesterday @ cwp. it's extremely short now ): my hair's ruinned cos 2 of my hairstylist came to trim my hair. because i had no idea how do i want my hair to be cut! tsktsk... i will rot at home till my hair grows longer ):

2009-12-29T13:26:00.002+08:00

Some of the photos taken during the stayover. Lazy to upload all from my mobile. Haha. But we sure had fun! Espcially the chocolate fondue! Haha.

2009-12-25T12:02:00.003+08:00

Friday: Plaza Sing. with the girls, caught couples retreat ._. > Fep > Jp > Home
Saturday: Avatar in 3D > Plaza Sing. with cousins > Fep with Judith > Ion > Home
Sunday: Plaza Sing. with Sis ( AGAIN for the 3rd time! ) > Cafe Cartel > Wait & waited for my phone, took fucking 5hours+ for all the procedures to be made > Imm
Monday: Ecp with the girls >Outram Park > Imm (i got sun burnt again ): & i wna get the other pair of shoes i saw! )
Tues-Wed: Can't rmb. i think i rot @ home.
Thursday: Out with cousins and i think i spent fucking 200+ bux. Fk u.
Today: i have no idea yet. buffet dinner @ night i think, unless somebody put aeroplane. Haha!

P.S/ Merry X'mas To Everyone!

2009-12-23T17:13:00.004+08:00

Photos up (at last!) ...

I know it's been a long long wait. Haha. Kk. Some photos here, the rest @ the same place again (for easy uploads)

2009-12-22T17:49:00.002+08:00

Getting busy lately. I have alot of stuffs to do, photos to upload/transfer/send.. etc etc.. I got my beloved bb at last. and it's fucking cheap ^^ so i need to do alot of stuffs to my new phone before i can go out or etc etc.. zzz.. photos up soon. meeting the girls soon agn.. ecp with them ytd for cycling and bowling. i'm having lobster skin now zzzzz back sooon..

2009-12-18T10:13:00.001+08:00

Gg out with my girls today! Yay.

2009-12-18T10:11:00.001+08:00

Q: Art and the Law is the sixth edition of the M1 Singapore Fringe Festival - True or False?

A: TRUE!

2009-12-16T17:03:00.003+08:00

The scene kept replaying..
But i finally understood your intentions.

Back from chalet. Drink, drunk, but not drunk. Photos will be up soon (L) But definitely not all. Heihei. Maybe one or two wil be up here. Uploaded the photos at elsewhere already.

I have a lot of upcoming plans. But idk which to first. Tskk.. I miss those school days. I have no idea how long it's been since i went to BB interchange. Used to be there with my girls/omy home. But now.. No more. Ytd i by pass there. Wow. Miss the place lor. Full of memories. Of cos' i miss the school. Tsk. In one month's time, i'll be back again. Sure to snap lots of photos! Right now i must regain all my energy so i can play like mad when i go out with my girls. Uhh.. Can't wait to meet them. So i can pass them their presents! And we'll plan another gathering. Looking forward. Gifts for lots of ppl, but i haven't gt the chance to hand them.

Miss my girls (L)(L)(L)(L)(L)

2009-12-12T17:58:00.002+08:00

If time could rewind, if memories could replay.

Photos uploaded. (On bbq & prom) Text me for url, if you wanna' see. (During my chalet, from Sun-Tues) / Pm @ MSN. I'll let you know if i want to. Close with me, you'll know where to find it (L) Comment when you're browsing the photos! ^.^

I shall start packing my stuffs for my chalet tomorrow. I haven't started preparing yet. Zzz.

2009-12-10T14:07:00.002+08:00

i need to stop this lifestyle. i've been lazing at home non-stop since my return. ugh. i haven't given out a single gift yet. i haven't get myself prepared for the upcoming chalet. all i did was remain still, doing nothing. then, it replays time and again. how nice it'd be if time could rewind. bring me back to where i used to stand, where life seemed more meaningful and enjoyable than now. a lot of things to be done. but i'm not starting any. how i wished there's something for me to push myself towards too. but right now, there isn't any. no goal. nothing. aimless. except for all the miscellanuous stuffs. those are which i'm really lazy to look into.

i wna catch alot of movies.
1 mulan
2 the princess and the frog
3 avatar
4 paranormal activity
5 christmas carol

words can't describe.
i want to use my vaio to do alot of stuffs. but it makes my blood boil. zzz. i hate it. i guess i have to get windows 7 for puffy now. then i must get a lot of games to keep me busy. should i get a wii? psp.go? fk. or should i just go travelling. so many things that i wanna do. but i can never make up my mind. zzz. i'll post the photos now.

2009-12-09T13:12:00.002+08:00

i have alot alot of photos to post. but i don't think i'll post here. it's slow. finally back in sg.

short summary.
new moon @ plaza sing on 3dec with cousins. back home around 10 to pack my stuffs. 11 @ aunt's place. 6am flight the next day. check-in at 4am. zzz. macau at 11am i think. macau>zhuhai>foshan>guangshou>shenzhen>macau mainly sight-seeing at there. but of cos' i did alot of shopping though. And the things there are freaking cheap! so i told mom we could go again. besides my niece ( which i don't know how far is she related from me ) we probably shared the same greatgreatgreatgreatgreat grandparents. zzz. that's how connected we are with our extremely distant relatives due to business ventures. in fact i think they didn't invite exist in our lives until business came into hand, then we realised we're link. LoL. kay, i have no idea too la. HAHA. so we met my niece who had a kid who is about 6yrs younger than me only. holyshit. my niece is supposed to be younger than me! LOL. whtever. anyway i think we'll be gg back to china again. zzz. cheap shopping there. intended to go bangkok instead, but after this trip, i think china better. haha. have to check the airtickets again. but i doubt we'll be gg, cos' it's gg to be winter. zzz. crap. should i just settle for bangkok? ):

all the pictures will be at lj instead! posting after my chalet. really tied down until next week. i still have a hair appointment this week i think. shucks. why is life so tough. i feel so worn out. i've just unpacked my stuffs only. sigh. alot of things to do.

2009-12-03T10:03:00.002+08:00

Finally i have some free time now, at this hour. Zzz. Flying off tomorrow. Can't wait for it. On another hand, i dread going. Very contradicting. Idk. It doesn't feels like it's gonna' make me feel happy and enjoy myself. Nvm. I wanted to email the pictures out badly, but it keeps lagging. So i guess, i'll email those whom i've promised, another time. Most probably when i'm back. Sorry.

Spent my day packing my stuffs for my trip yesterday and updating my ipod. And i ruinned it. Thank god it's fine now (: Hahaha. My throat hurts badly now. I think it's the after effects of working. Ugh. Had foot reflexology last night. Wonderful. Heihei.

Heading to Plaza Sing. later for new moon with cousins! Yay, excited! ^^

Feels very lame

2009-11-30T12:25:00.003+08:00

Grad night was bad. I don't like it. So i don't wanna' put the photos up. But i'll keep it of course! So if you want your photos, lemme' know and i'll send it to you (: Grad night was a terrible failure. It suck to the max. Actually not. We had fun amongst ourselves too though the school hate us so much that they simply isolate us at a corner. Wtf. And for every single activity, we were not included. Perhaps only during the Q&A time. Zzz.. Hate it. 4 tables by our class and being isolated. If i'm not wrong, only our class was fully present. Zzz.. Then end up, all of us wasted our money there. Fk. Hate it. Seriously. The more i mention about it, i get more mad about it. Halfway through we left for our own photo taking session. Yes, 4 tables went empty. Fancy pushing the blame on us for leaving. Wtf. Why not you guys go into deep reflection and take a look at the situation we're in for being isolated behind. Everything was boring. Sucky. Even the mini bbq party for Eugene was x926482394639482749387429387429 times better la. Nvm. We stayed for the entire duration to see the ending of the sucky night. Cabbed to Cineleisure to catch a movie, My gf is an agent. Nice movie, but fking cold. Then back home.

Worked full time from last monday till yesterday. Monday was grad night so i had to work half day only. Fking tiring i tell you. Roadshow was mad. But people there are nice. Had a fun time with Judith. But it was scary. Like big boss would come down to spy anytime. And those superior there are always acting cocky. Fk. Furthermore they ain't even in our company. Zzz.. They still kept lecturing us. What's wrong with using our break to rest at our area? We even skipped break to promote stuffs and we end up getting lecture. Don't understand why. Hate it. At least yesterday was last day and i get to catch transformers for the first time, during work. Haha. Furthermore i've received alot of praising from my customers. Heiheizxz. At least, it's all worthwhile ^^

4 more days before i leave singapore to macau, hongkong and i'm not very sure what other places too. But there's quite a few places we'd be travelling to! ^^

2009-11-22T17:23:00.006+08:00

BBQ @ PJY's place on friday. fun! Met yanshan and jo to get some accessorises thn bryan and sze hong came. Bought the bbq stuffs and 173 to pjy's house. Then BBQ! i love the prawns, wings, satays, stingrays, sotongs. That's what we have only ._. Ate, then played cards, and some games. Just kept eating non-stop. Cake smashing after some games. Cleaned up and cont. playing. Omfg! My thighs were badly bruised from the slaps by bj and pjy! Then hide and seek. funny. Photos and cabbed back with sam. All 13 were present.

Hit town yesterday with Eileen and Justin. Took the long train ride there. Impromptu decision. Ion>Taka>Wisma>Fep>Ion>Wisma>Fep>Jp>Pioneer>Mac>Their house My legs were really tired. At their place till 11 and dad picked up.

Went for my manicure appointment today again, cos' the previous one was ruinned. I bet it's due to the bbq. All Jo's fault! Hiakhiak. Never keep her promise. Lol. Bought lotsa' food back after my appt. Tired. Happy. Not very satisfied cos i kindda' ruin my nails again. wtf. ugh wdv.

ughh.. work tmr before prom. tired.

2009-11-19T18:30:00.004+08:00

Out since Sunday, from morning till very late. Very tired. My legs hurt badly. Finally i get to rest more today. With cousins on Sunday, glad that i didn't chance upon anybody. But, Monday was bad. Chanced upon so many people lor. Then 2012 in the night at Lot One with Mondre, saw Judith too. Town on Tuesday with the girls. Tired. I manage to bought almost everything. Went for my medicure and pedicure appointment today with Jolyn. Pretty lor. Love it so much. But kindda' like Jo's background color more! Nvm la. Mom said my nail art will most probably last for a week only, since i'm never careful. Haha. So.. i'll change to a nicer color! Heihei. Shopped for some stuffs after our pedicures. Omg, i just realised i've spent more than 1k since the start of this month and obviously, most start after my papers. Oh wtf, i hate myself badly now. I'm spending too much. In less than a week, i've bought 6 pairs of footwear. And within 2 days, i bought 2 perfume. Wtf. Hate this. Must stop. My leg is aching. Gg for foot massage tomorrow, i hope i'll be able to make it. Gna' get mom to make an appointment for me now, lest it gets full house againnnn.. Sigh, $$

My silly girls + Yan Shan + Rachael

P.S/ I miss school.

2009-11-15T12:29:00.000+08:00

Mixed feelings

2009-11-14T15:55:00.004+08:00

LiveLongLove..

Marina Bay > City Hall > Marina Square > Yuki Yaki > Town > Ion > Wisma > Cine > Wheelocks > Borders > Ion > Home

Yesterday was fun-filled, happyhappy day! ^^ But.. very unfruitful day ): I never get to buy anything! Thank god, at last, i anyhow grab some stuff from rubi before taking the train back. Dad picked me up from the train station, and that saved me from the remaining walks back.

Cannot stand being stuck at home, but it's a good way to stop splurging money on rubbish. Because i bought bracelets yesterday that cost 20bux ley ): Thankfully, i was stopped to purchase another one. Heihei. All in all, i only purchased 2 bracelets and a pair of flipflops. Pathetic. But! i've already spent close to 300bux since.. last week, when i only begin to step out yesterday. *&^%$#^%!! I hope they money comes back to me asap please! On another hand, why should i bother when others don't. holyshit. On a lighter note, i'm still fine with everything, with the flow. hey, i'm missing school ):

Jo's sixteeth @ Swensens, on 16Oct

With lovelies, on last Sunday

A word to say, no offense, but i wonder why everybody's beginning to clear their stuff now. Kay, in fact, nothing for me to offence about. Maybe it's just me. I have no confidence in excellng nor moving forward. So i kept my stuffs stagnant. Maybe sometime later, when i get over it. Truely, i doubt myself. So many have been repeating the same thing, the exact same phrase. I have no idea where they learnt from. Haah. But.. it doesn't works. Or maybe it does, for a moment. Then back again, i don't think i will be able to move forward. So i wonder why.. Weird.

2009-11-14T09:11:00.002+08:00

I mentioned i didn't wanna blog anymore. But then again.. i'm bored now. Haha. But no.. not gonna' blog now. I don't wanna' miss out the fun-filled details. So..later.. when i'm free-ier. Haha. Actually when i use my vaio instead then i'll blog. So there'd be photos. Back again later ^^

2009-11-05T18:15:00.001+08:00

Bye

2009-11-02T18:02:00.003+08:00

Two more papers to go on this Wednesday, and everything will be over. Lots of things has been happening lately. Lazy to elaborate further. Math paper was tough like mad. I mean additional math. Thank god paper 2 was manageable due to all the high marks qns. Glad it's over. Yet at the same time, it's a sad thing. I won't touch math anytime sooner. And the urge of working on math just keeps coming back. Tsktsk. Two more papers to goooooooo... i cannot wait for alot of things to happen after this wednesday. hohoho. But i'm worried for the release of my results too. Everybody kept saying, everything's gonna' be okay. But shit no, i didn't really put in my best for these papers. I have no idea how i can be doing well. Sigh. I don't wanna' restart again. God, please help me. But i have a feeling that i will... tsktsk. back to studying now.

2009-10-20T22:19:00.001+08:00

Too cute to resist. Too adorable. Candid.

2009-09-22T11:29:00.003+08:00

Moving away..

Bbq party + surprised birthday party on Sunday. Pictures at elsewhere instead, find it if you can. Nothing on food. Busy enjoying my large juicy prawns and bbq wings. Yummy. Brief updates once in a while. Kay, lovelove.

Bad color combination.

2009-09-19T15:16:00.006+08:00

It's been a long time..

Removed all my rantings. Make it simpler. At elsewhere instead, won't be back ranting any often. Looking forward to meet loveloves tomorrow.

2009-09-12T13:04:00.002+08:00

Due to studying intensively, i hadn't had much time.

I realised i'm lack of alot of stuffs lor. Like i hadn't shopped in ages and my collection of clothes is dropping to zero because i keep dump old ones and not buying new ones home as i didn't go out. Sad right. And besides, i hardly see any to my liking. Sigh. Then i hadn't touch my vaio for nearly a month or so. Bad. I should have just bought a dslr then i'd probably fiddle with it everyday. I hadn't had a new phone for a year plus already. I think it's the first time in my life that i stick to a phone this long. It's been a year and a month already, if i didn't remember wrongly. Bad. Time for a change of phone please. But, no, the camera must come in first. Sigh. Also, i've left my psp and dsl to rot already. It's been more than 6 months since i last play with it. Sigh. I think it's moulding soon. Fortunately, sis still plays with my psp occassionally. But my dsl, is really poor thing. It's just up on the table with a layer of dust on it. Gross. Dad hasn't play with it for 3months already. I think he's bored with the games too. Bad. I need a change of bag. As in, a bag for me to travel out, a bag that can put my books, like i could bring it along if i wanna' study outside. Really short of one. Yes, i shopped online. But idk why i buy bags that are only suitable for shopping when i know i wouldn't shop within these few months. I think i'm really a pathetic lil' kid. At least others' are out to shop once in a while, but me, no. Nobody wants to bring me out also. K, i know i sound sad. But i'm not exactly. Haha. Bad, the construction noise is back again. Means the workers are done with lunch = i cannot study. Sigh. Back to the topic, i'm really short of money lately too. Sigh. Bad. I shall stop complaining and be contented. I know it's contradicting. Wdv.

2009-09-06T19:08:00.002+08:00

Time to get rid of all the old boring,naggy,wordy,lengthy,whiney posts already. Replace all of it with my ruined face, ruined hair; idontcare.

It's reallyreally dull not seeing any pictures up. Main reason was, i haven't receive the pictures from mojojojojojojojo, up till now! Oh my.

Life's been really hectic, busy, boring and everything you can think of. People around's been changing, like how the weather changes. I understand. There's this one person whom i really can't stand at times. I wonder why. Yet, i still have to live by it since i ain't the one giving him/her wages. Don't matter to me.

I'm pretty slacked these days. Take for instance, i started shopping online again. Wrong timing lor. That's not the worst. What's worst was, i bought bags that amount to 200bucks at least. Infuriating right? Ms. C. says it's my way of destress. F. Rlly meh? I'd rather go die ley. Less than 1day, so much money gone. If this happens everyday.. I cannot imagine the outcome.

Attempting to complete as many work as possible so that i can clear all my doubts on tuesday. Then i can start with complete revisions, on papers to prepare myself for my prelims which are coming up on the following week, immediately after this vacation. I wonder if i can perform well. I hope i can, and i rlly wna' do my best. Just in case, what they said, come true. Like maybe, i die midway or something. Haha.

Then agn, with the addition of pictures, i still end it with a lengthy,nagging,boring paragraphs. i can't kick my bad habit. wdv, i guess i'm just too bored.

bye. i need to finish up everything that i've not done on the lappy and move back to my work asap.

Withlove.

2009-09-05T21:53:00.002+08:00

Getting pissed at the wrong time.
Blogger is rlly not moving. And i'm just stuck here, to keep ranting.

Time for a proper post instead. Haven't had one in a long while already. I've been mugging, but not hard enough. They said they've seen improvements, but i don't think so. They said they've seen me working work, but i don't think so. They say i'm beginning to slacken, i completely agree. Somehow, it's just on and off. Like what she said, probably my concentration level is too low, focus level too low, i die out easily during midway. Definitely not a good thing. (back to the main thing, this is not gna' be a proper post agn) This year's been really bad. I've just realised i had a stock of medication at home. Everytime i complete a course, i just leave it as it is, and nobody clears it for me. So as months went by, the courses of medication on the table piles up. And on it, it's my name. I could prolly open up a pharmacy if i hadn't consume those medicine. Scary, ain't it. I look upon it, and realised, it's really alot. Then i start counting the cost. Oh dear, really alot. Estimation, about 1k or so, i guess. Now, i think my attendence confirm very bad also. Sigh. Everything isn't happening at the wrong time. Everything's in a haywire. My life's messed up, it seems ruined. K, back to square one. I need to start picking up these pieces and put them back together, so i can move on. I know, very ridiculous. And i don't know why i just go on typing in this manner. It's like.. so.. weird. K, emo. Lol.

I haven't been practicing hard enough. It's the official start of prelim the following week, i haven't gotten every single chapter of each subject stored in my left&right brain. I haven't got much time either. I'm panting hard, trying to catch up. But each time i do so, negative thoughts came by. It seems impossible. How hard i try, i'd never reach the point where everybody is. Rlly demoralising at times. Yet, on the contrary, it serves as another purpose to allow me to start kicking hard and move on fast. But i ain't helping myself. I push myself at times, then i end up pulling myself back once more. This is bad.

Enough of ranting. This is so wordy. And i like it when nobody reads, because when somebody reads, the word spreads. Lol. I don't like it. They know it. And i know they know. But what can i do to stop them? I'm afraid they don't know i know this. Fine with me. As time goes by.. it'll end.

Sometimes i rlly hate you, yet sometimes it's neutral/mutual.
It can be bad at times, yet there are good times too.

2009-09-05T12:02:00.003+08:00

i feel so sad. i've slackened alot lately. even teachers said so. thus i really need to buck up but stupid internet kept tempting me. i've been shopping online recently, even when i'm having prelims! wtf.. have already spent up to 200plus bucks online already. this is really bad. and at the same time, mommy just kept giving me money. this is not helping at all. i'll collect my stuffs later and i hope i dont see anyone cos' .. lol. on the contrary, i feel happy. at least my hard work didn't went down the drain.

i shall study now. doing math paper, and it's really difficult. am i having a mental block now or not? i seem to be unable to solve every question. sigh. having tuition later, so i should really start work now, lest i waste my tuition time doing work again. i want school badly, i don't like holidays. i hate the internet. i should stop shopping. after i get my loots today, i'll stop my search already (i hope i really do) somebody.. please stop me.

enough of rantings. i need my motivation back to study.

2009-08-31T17:40:00.002+08:00

Satisfied with myself for getting a gift for my teachers for the first time in my 4years in bukitview. hahaha. i spent so much effort, time and hardwork for these manxzx. ohmygod... i feel less bad after contributing in the card thingy. but i feel v. bad for not wishing this particular teacher who's been v. nice to me all along and never reject my requests ): ugh.. i wonder why i can forget ley! tsktsk...

i'll try to tune myself back to the studying mood. somehow i kept getting distracted and lose concentration. sigh.

2009-08-31T16:41:00.001+08:00

i had a post. but it felt so mono. i didn't felt like posting it out.

2009-08-28T19:46:00.002+08:00

Too bad for you, if you didn't get to see it. Hohoho~

Was at the bottle tree park last night for dinner as it was sis' birthday. then suria was shooting a scene there and it was really funny. we were the only audience. fullstop. v. lazy to elaborate further.

2009-08-28T19:41:00.001+08:00

Our birthday. (Jolyn's and mine) Haha. Okay, just kidding. I find it really funny. Hahaha.

2009-08-23T10:02:00.001+08:00

Remember that making mistake is part of learning.

2009-08-21T06:42:00.001+08:00

A smile is worth a thousand words.

2009-08-18T18:41:00.002+08:00

i don't understand. i don't understand. i don't understand. i don't understand. i don't understand. i don't understand. i don't understand. i don't understand. i don't understand. i don't understand. i don't understand. i don't understand. i don't understand. i don't understand. i don't understand. i don't understand. i don't understand. i don't understand. i don't understand. i don't understand. i don't understand. i don't understand. i don't understand. i don't understand. i don't understand. i don't understand. i don't understand. i don't understand. i don't understand. i don't understand.
i don't feel allright. i don't feel allright. i don't feel allright. i don't feel allright. i don't feel allright. i don't feel allright. i don't feel allright. i don't feel allright. i don't feel allright. i don't feel allright. i don't feel allright. i don't feel allright. i don't feel allright. i don't feel allright. i don't feel allright. i don't feel allright. i don't feel allright. i don't feel allright. i don't feel allright. i don't feel allright. i don't feel allright. i don't feel allright. i don't feel allright. i don't feel allright. i don't feel allright. i don't feel allright. i don't feel allright. i don't feel allright. i don't feel allright. i don't feel allright.
i think we need to talk. i think we need to talk. i think we need to talk. i think we need to talk. i think we need to talk. i think we need to talk. i think we need to talk. i think we need to talk. i think we need to talk. i think we need to talk. i think we need to talk. i think we need to talk. i think we need to talk. i think we need to talk. i think we need to talk. i think we need to talk. i think we need to talk. i think we need to talk. i think we need to talk. i think we need to talk. i think we need to talk. i think we need to talk. i think we need to talk. i think we need to talk.
how? how? how? what to do. what to do. what to do. what should i do. what should i do. what should i do. why? why? why? sigh. sigh. sigh. the feeling isn't good at this moment now ):

2009-08-18T06:32:00.001+08:00

They said: it's just an hallucination.

hohoho~

2009-08-17T17:59:00.002+08:00

it feels like wht i've said to those around me about me is gg to happen on me. idk. at tht moment, i just felt like it. i know i'm not supposed to say this, especially to myself. but sometimes, everything that's happening makes me think it is it. (ignore if you don't understand) then when i'm back home today, i googled it via the internet. everything was quite true, indeed, some of it are happening at this moment. but definitely, i can't deduce it myself. if it isn't scientifically proven, then i can't say i'm right. it's just my assumption. but.. the chances are rlly high. i'm serious and this is no joke. it didn't came as a shock or too sudden for me. i've already given it a thought ages ago. cos' prev. doc. mentioned about it to me before. hence, the probabilities is stated clearly: high chance. it's really tiring when your life really has to come to this stage. but for me, not yet. i'll do whatever it takes now to make myself recover thoroughly first, so i'd do well in my following papers. and none of these, will affect ^^ and i'll go to n.c. end of this yr to check on b (: (yes, finally i'm willing to go and i'm saying it out)

however i think something is reallyreally wrong with me health ): sigh. the fever comes and goes. the flu come and goes. the cough comes and goes. the gastric comes and goes. the migraine comes and goes. tsktsk.

today's a bad day already. the flu came in the morning, followed by mild migraine and finally severely gastric. see, from bad to worst. worst of all, despite feeling v. unwell, i have to give a response of me feeling allright. idk wht is wrong with me manxz. if it continues this way, i dont understand why not just get rid of the life. it's v. irritating. haiyooooo.

2009-08-16T14:56:00.003+08:00

I'm using my pretty vaio again! ^^ Been a week since i've used it. haiyooo.. i feel so bad. Kay, i need to cut short everything because i spent 2hours on lappy already and 4hours on tv today, and only 2 hours on math. haiyooo.. i must go do math already. but something to be happy about: i finally completed on differentiation in the tys and it's the second time. yay. moving on to integration now. cheer on for me okay? i must faster catch up already ^^

2009-08-15T18:57:00.001+08:00

My new hair that makes me look really stupid. Sigh... Just a random update from my phone :) i'm redoing my Tys on differentiation and am already at 11c. K, i'll continue with my work now and plurk at the same time via my ipod. Hoho.

2009-08-15T14:46:00.003+08:00

V. cute mr whiteybrowny ^^Irritating fella. Always popping in his innocent look to me. Hoho. I was studying on my bed just now and he jumped up and lie right beside me, v. irritating, but i like! HAHA!

Hardcore tuition just now. Wow, the aircon was too cold that i couldn't breathe properly! Me is gg to study soooon~ Sigh. i'm gonna' practise math non-stop now. Since i kept forgetting, haiyoooo.

K, toodles. I won't come back often anymore ):

2009-08-13T21:36:00.003+08:00

Me is gg to sleep soon. Using my pre-sleep energy to post via phone right now. Been having preps recently that results in the lack of updates. Kay, no link. Hehe. But just me rant. The start of the week really sucked! Then it turned better gradually :) hehe. Perhaps i'm too soft-hearted, i think. Cos if you treat me bad a minute ago, and treat nice the next minute, i cannot actually forgo what you did badly to me man. Oh my.. It's so unlike me, in the past, i think. Anyway, it only applies to certain people. Hoho. Finally, today's the end of preps :) Oh, and finally, i had my first lesson on skating! Yay, it's very fun! Been a week plus since i last skated on my own blade :) Today very fun, but also very smelly. Haha. Yes, i know i complain alot. Bad news, i think i haven't recovered fully :( All of a suddenly, i'll feel damn weak and uncomfortable for no apparent reason :( ... Tbc when i'm free again, my hands are getting tired. ( And just in case i get stalked )

Time check: 8.38pm, Friday.

As promised. tbc..

Kay, i forgot to mentioned, i think i screwed up my a.math prep paper. Cos' while doing the paper, all of a sudden i felt super unwell and was ask to take temperature. thankgod, the fever didn't came so sudden. So i managed to complete my paper way before time and so i could rest. i was trembling throughout the entire duration manxz. Can't believe i felt exactly like how i was during O'lvls MT listening compre. And the feeling sucks! So after the prep was the talking thingay~~~ LOL. And home for tuition!

Caught 'Orphan' today. A bit boring.. lazy to continue. tbc.. another time. Hoho.

2009-08-11T17:03:00.002+08:00

Time check: 8.03am

Am in school right now, having geography lesson which is really boring. Zzz.. Lots of people had a new haircut and it's really funny. Now i don't feel weird with my new hair already :):):) Tbc.. So

boring now...

Time check: 5.00pm

wtf, my fever keeps coming and going away. it's almost impossible to recover manxzz, especially when i kept getting irritated. idk why life is so unfair you know! when you're sick, all the bad things happen; you get scolded, accused.. for no apparent reason. then when you're not sick, at least you're being ignored for every little thing. or maybe, i think it only happens to me. wtf. as though i can give you a definite answer on what wrong with me? or to put it simplier, i could just say i'm gg to die anytime lor. fk. idk why my week's always spoilt. i can never have a peaceful week, except for maybe the week tht i stayed away from school. wait.. no.. i still get lots' of irritating calls! wtf. zzzzzzzzzzzz

2009-08-11T11:45:00.001+08:00

Jolyn, during mt. V bored!

2009-08-10T13:19:00.010+08:00

Time check: 3.04pm

New haircut. It's really short now, but i shall keep it unknown first so those who see me tomorrow will be really surprise! haha, k, actually really not much difference. the photo was taken after my haircut, but cannot see clearly, heihei ^^ but i think with the new haircut it's better. however, it seems like the new haircut has brought in lots' of problems.. gahh.. whatever, too lazy to repeat long stories + short stories.

'buffet' and grandparents' place yesterday, while watching the ndp'09. this year's ndp v. irritating lor, at the news part on the terrorist threat. i was damn shock and thought it was real for a moment, i guess it's not only me lor. my uncles also stood straight for a moment upon watching that 'news'. irritating lor, this kind of ndp. haha. then i went home early, and sleep in early xD

i wanted to study today! but i haven't really started, sigh only halfway through studying. sigh. this sucks. idk what has happened, i'm becoming lazier every other day. tsktsk, bad sign, y'know. somebody please motivate me! haha, k, i'll start becoming serious again from this coming weekend onwards. haha, yes, i love to procrastinate. and i wna watch movie!!! ^^

k i shall go study abit first so i can webcam with my cousins later! heihei.

me love singapore (insert many hearts)

Time check: 5.12pm

Webcam..

(inserts manymany hearts)

Happy national day!

2009-08-10T09:19:00.003+08:00

2009-08-08T10:49:00.003+08:00

trimmed my fringe again yesterday. haiyo, so short now ): Means more irritating to my eyes now. sigh. caught 'up' yesterday too! ^^ V. nice.

bbq at csc last night. lil' girl's birthday, so cute. happy belated birthday to coline ^^ she's still as irritating as ever! haha

2009-08-07T16:52:00.006+08:00

I need to rant badly! I'm very pissed now, very angry now, very agitated now! All the irritated and angry emotions, you can ever think of! Continue more when i'm home later... Need time to cool down a minute. Am on my way home now :)

Time: 5.23pm

Finally home.

Yes, i'm still pissed! (No bad/mean words anymore!)

the school is really getting irritating every now and then. i don't care if you're gonna' read what i'm gonna' say. i just need to rant really badly. you're not me, so you wouldn't understand how !#$%^&!%$# it feels la. by saying the school, i don't literally mean the school or the majority of the people there. just probably the minority, yes, the working industry, yes the tertiary industry. not the education system or whatever la. it's the people!

they use mean words on me! it's so !#$%^#%! really cannot stand them, y'know. try being treat this way, and you'll get what i mean. i tell it's totally so irritating. they accused you/maligned you for no apparant reason you know. idk what is wrong. my fault or what?!?!? v. unreasonable you know. and furthermore, it's so insulting, insulting my character as though i've got no integrity. hello?! it's just 1hour of detention class i owe, do i have the need to lie. furthermore, the principal, the councillor were my witnesses too you know! i feel like demanding an apology, seriously, it feels so insulting! !#$%^%$ but even having the small appology, i doubt it'll help anything. it's as though somebody killed your love on and then just apologise to you. is it gonna' help in any way? !#$$%$&% anyway, this is not the main reason in fact. idk, but this matter just made me feel more irritated. something wrong with me is it?

every little matter always sound as though it's my fault, y'know. at the beginning i'll feel, i'm not in the wrong at all. then gradually when i keep replaying the scene in my mind, i start it feel everything's my fault. my fault for being on earth, being in singapore, being in this school. this is so... !##$% get what i mean, maybe no. kay, nvm. just needa' rant.

aiyah, in simple terms, they are unreasonable! and it's not the first time already.

And then some times, these matters drive me crazy. cos' they can even make the black turn white. thus, i'll feel like committing suicide, i'm serious y'know. but nobody in the right mind, would go do something like this, of cos'. it's so.. crazy. k, ranting on isn't helping. i'm making myself more pissed. and now, my appendix pain is acting up. so who shall i thank? those who accuse me right? so what you've wronged me by accident? don't you think you should actually watch your words properly in future? an apology back won't help either cos' you could prolly kill the person indirectly cos' it's really an insult, fyi.

k, i go have my pills before i pass out. yes, everything that turn out today, is the result of everything that has happened. else, i wouldn't even be taking my pills constantly. think i'll take up prev. doc.'s advice to go to the N.C. at the end of this year. lest, everything turns to the worst.

2009-08-01T14:05:00.002+08:00

sigh.

alot of thing's been happening lately..

k, i shall mention something funny and at the same time it's really pissing lots of people.
k, so th story goes like that:
mac delivery at school just now with J, R, Y, Z.
then J and Z went home together.
so me and Y acc. R to wait for her dad.
thn J called me. (i was fking shock)
she told me something then..
i told R and Y after i put down the phone with J.
thn R screamed out loud. really funny.
so everybody turned and look at us.
but then.. we still cannot get over the news la.
R called S and K also. i was laughing real hard.

tsktsk...

2009-07-30T12:16:00.003+08:00

fkfkfkfkfk!

few days back, i was still loving school. but now, i hate school like fk la. i think i gonna' have depression soon. HAAHAA. cos' i feel like skipping school everyday now. fk la. walauxzx, i'm still damn pissed lor. dngiongdfkljndsaklfndisfoua!!!!

went to consult dr. j. lee just now. i feel so guilty when i walk pass my prev doc.'s place. sigh.
i still feel so guilty.

fk sia. i think my life's ruinned by th school. fk. it's screwed up now.
i really hate the school to the max now lor.

2009-07-28T17:31:00.003+08:00

Gastric..

my good day back to school! ^^ it's really great being back in school lor. and then i lied in school today again. haha. i had fun laughing the entire day with the people around me, y'know :DDD but the bad thing is, i meet weird people. sigh. bad teachers' you know. they irritate me so much that.. walauxz, i don't feel like tolerating anymore lorxzx! damn. one asked if i was okay, and if i needed to go home. fk! i just came to school after 7days and you're asking me to go back! another asked if i enjoyed my 7days. fk, no. but i said yes cos' i didn't like the teacher and i gave a reply like this: of cos'! cos' i don't have to see you.. something like that or so. then the rest just kept calling me to pay attention and etc.. worst was, i had really bad gastric. sigh. and i forgot to get my medicine till now. tsktsk icecream at westmall after remedials ^^ yummilicious and back home.

sigh. down with flu againxzxzxz ):

2009-07-27T12:28:00.006+08:00

Funfilled..

was at grandparents' place yesterday. and i brought my pretty vaio over. heihei. so we ended up play with my pretty vaio's cam. i'll let the pictures do the talking, some of the stupid shots:

then.. i'm a good girl today ^^ i studied okay! sigh. but i kept giving up midway. tsktsk. but i think i'm the only one who complete the most hbl work lor. heihei. if i work hard today confirm finish all lor, but .. sigh. somehow i just cannot get down to work and end up calling for mac delivery, watching tv, and now using my pretty vaio. heihei. i really missed school, y'know. sigh. they never ask me go back, then they don't allow me go back, and then they ask why i never go back. fk the school lor. they have my mc and they still asked me how long's my mc. and then still don't wanna' let me go back. sigh. i'm missing out alot of stuffs already manzxzxz. finally, tomorrow's coming. but sigh.. i beginning to fall sick againxzx. wtf. after 4days, i recovered. and after 3days, i'm falling sick. sigh. i think i had too many unhealthy food recently. tsktsk.

i shall get back to work now so i can catch my show 15mins later. hoho.

i gave it a little thought, it no longer seems as complex as before.

2009-07-24T16:36:00.003+08:00

5 more days to go.. ^^

think i've recovered fully, even if i don't, also no choice cos' i've finished up my medication already. hoho. good thing: mrstan stopped ringing my phone. bad thing: mrkong came over last evening to pass me my work. darn. now i got lots of work to be completed when i return to school. actually it's not necessary for me to get the work lor, cos' i'm on mc. but i asked for it, cos' i got nothing to do. sigh.

recalling..
i cannot imagine i've fallen so ill, y'know. okay, it isn't the worst afterall. the worst was few years back. sigh. i hope everything goes back to normal on tuesday.

the night when R texted/called me, telling me she's gotten h1n1. i totally freaked out manxz. gosh, it feels like a dream;till now. HAHA. and then the next day, the school was over reacting. yadayada.. they cleaned up the classroom and asked me for the details and sent me home. it's funny when i recall back now. and then i think of the faces of our teachers unable to accept the fact that R was first. HAHA. it's really funny. and now, the class becomes so empty. sigh.
but it's good time for us to do our revisions now ^^

i'm off to do my work now ^^

2009-07-24T12:50:00.001+08:00

Sigh.

The end.

2009-07-24T10:32:00.002+08:00

you don't know me well enough or i don't know you well enough?
sigh. it's frustrating.

something's wrong, something's not right.
and i got nothing to say about this, because i think even if i have, it doesn't matter, does it.
in any case, whatever it is, nothing matters.
i feel so inferior (is it the right word?) sigh.
i still don't know anything, don't know everything, don't know well enough.

sighhhhhhhhhhhhhhh
):

2009-07-23T11:15:00.003+08:00

i feel so weak manxz. yet i can't rest. i feel so intense the moment i start to rest la. zzz. sigh. 2 docs within a day. think i'll consult another one on coming monday if i still feel so unwell. thankgod, there're days for me to recuperate. i feel so stress, thus how can i rest. sigh.

i wished i'm on loa instead being on mc. it sucks man. i can't even take a step out simply because i feel damn weak. gosh. i feel like i'm paralysed in fact. anyway, at least i've been working on math. tsktsk. i just feel uneasy. and i think i'm beginning to develop a phobia of sleeping. laughs. i'm serious. it's as though the moment i begin to sleep, somebody will just wake me up and stop me from sleeping. and now i gotta take my temp. early in the morning everyday. thus i gotta' really sleep in damn early. sigh. it's so tiring. i just feel like asking somebody to take my life away manxz. that's the reason why i hated being sick. cos' once i fall sick, it takes a long time for me to really well and energetic. but i don't think my immune system is that weak afterall. tsktsk.

lc ytd suck big time. i felt like dying while doing my lc manxz. omg. now that i recall, i wonder what held me back all along. just thankgod that i held on till the end of lc. and i hate the school la. they're damn unreasonable manxz. they only worsen my current condition. even if they think i'm on loa, what gives them the rights to speak to me in such a manner! yes, i'm still very mad when i think back. i was just doing what i was asked to do over the phone okay! to save the trouble, i've already took the initiative to do what i was asked to do and end up i got reprimanded for no reason. damn it. (my hands feel so weak to continue typing) sigh. whatever the case, i don't wanna' mention anymore. because i'm beginning to feel more uncomfortable when i get angry. and i cannot allow my gastric or migraine to act up at this moment because i've complete my set of medication and i can't get out to purchase another set. fk right?

bye, i'll do my work now.

2009-07-21T20:12:00.001+08:00

From bad to worst. Tsktsk

2009-07-21T17:33:00.003+08:00

i feel kindda guilty over the whole issue now. it's as though we've caused alot of inconvenience to all. though i was tested negative, somehow i still felt it wasn't a thorough check, y'know. but.. tsktsk. at least because i'm negative, the chances of everybody else contracting it would be alot lower. so thank god lah. but i nearly died midway. i'm serious! haha, anyways this ain't any joke. idk if i could focus well for tomorrow's paper. suck la. i'm already feeling damn uncomfortable now and i still have to take my papers tomorrow. what if i die midway. omg. anyways u received a number of calls today, from mrs tan and mr zul. somehow they don't seem to work together. they ask the same question and say the same thing. so i gotta' repeat everything. fk y'know. made me feel worst, and my throat suffered the most. tsktsk. life is so saddening. and i'm the only who returns to school on tuesday. fkfkfk. i feel like dying already. 7days is a long time manxzxz. i just hope my temperature don't jump up anymore especially for tomorrow afternoon. hai. i still feel very guilty.

anyway i think i'll permanantly change my doc to the doc i've consulted today. she's nice and pretty. and most importantly she's damn caring lor. she's not even my family doc yet and she's willing to spend so much time on me, speaking to mrs tan and all. worst is, the school kindda' pissed her off i think. what a stupid school.

i should have forced rach to go home earlier. tsk. now the whole issue became so big. and end up we all suffer ): hai. i think alot of people suffered from this issue.

2009-07-18T20:27:00.005+08:00

finally
it's beeen two weeks.

been about two weeks since i touched my vaio. i feel so bad for it. i love it so much and yet i neglect it for so long. all this while, i've been touching my old lappy cos' it wasn't off all along. thus, to save the hassle, i used that instead. tsktsk.

i think i did quite alot of work within these 2 days. i'm finally halfway through my chemistry holiday assignment. and of cos' for math, somehow it kept remaining stagnant. this is so bad.

i feel like baking brownies now. but then again, i couldn't find the tray at home. and i only wanna' eat the chocolates in the brownie. haha.

irealiseisoundveryemo. HAHA.

2009-07-18T07:56:00.003+08:00

heartache;
when you begin to recall.

i feel like complaining non-stop.
i feel like ranting non-stop.
but i know i can't.

i feel that something's bothering me.
but i don't know what it is.

i feel that life sucks now/at time.
but i shouldn't be feeling this way.

i feel mean towards people.
but i still treat them this way.

tsktsk..my life is in a bad.
my life is all wrecked up.

y'know when i think of me studying so hard and end up everything go down into the drain, i feel very.. words cannot be described manxzx. cos' i seriously think i cannot make it, given the records i have. ~~fkfkfk.~~ now i think back; what's the point of them giving me a chance? afterall it isn't gonna' help, or will it? maybe it will. i shall remain optimistic for the time being.

i want to grumble alot, but who's willing to listen. tsktsk..

2009-07-17T17:36:00.004+08:00

Chem spa today. Suck lor. i did it in less than 30 minutes okay. F. i think i missed out alot of things inside although mrs f. praises me for all my previous investigations. hiakhiak. but..tsktsk, the real one isn't that great.

anyways.. i think we all had fun, making fun of my dream. HAAHAA! f. funny okay! i ate alot today, and i'm suffering now. zzz. idk. i think i have serious gastric problems. i think i needa' at least go collect my gastric pills from doc. but how can i collect when i'm already so lazy to phone my doc. can some kind soul go get the pills for me? heihei. it's very near my house! haha.

i think i've been really mean this year, mean to the people around me. tsktsk. i feel so bad, ya'know. but i think they deserve it ley. k, it's so bad of me. tsktsk..i'm so disappointed in myself now. i think the bitchy teacher is gonna' lodge a complain to mr zul again. fk. read the word 'again'. i tell you, she's really a bitch manxz. but on second thoughts i think she gave up complaining already. cos' the previous time she did, it didn't had any effect at all. mr zul just talked to me and that's all. kay, maybe he kept bugging me the next few days on the same old thing, and then he forgot or he gave up. lol. so if she were to lodge a complain to him, i think she'll end up embarrassing herself. because once again, it's prolly won't work. and i don't think i would bother. seriously, would the testimonial help alot? i don't think so. i already had a wonderful data in my profile already, so having a really wonderful testimonial wouldn't really help much lor. thus, i gave up. the word 'testimonial' somehow don't work on me anymore. how silly i was to actually believe it's helpful, until i come to think of the wonderful data that was already keyed in. fk. but the only good thing would prolly be, they didn't claim money from me. or else i guess the data's gonna' stick with me forever. fortunately, they didn't. so this data is avail for school only. thankgod; should i or should i not.

tgif, thankgodit'sfriday. Zzzz. i don't think it makes a difference. lol.

i think i crap alot this few days. guess it's prolly i plurk too much. then i end up feel like talking more now. haha.

i keep feel like saying something, but i kept forgetting. omg, i feel that my english sucks now. sometimes, i don't even understand lor. fk. i think it's because i'm very lazy to type now, because i'm using my old lappy.
i feel so pissed with myself now, cos' i seriously can't remember what i wanna' say.

p.s/ my english teacher is so boring. he always uses the same old thing to bug me. fk, you know. and once he got something new to say about me, he'll repeat the same thing continuously. this is how uncreative he is. HE IS SO BORING. i though humanities teachers should be fun, but i think he's weird. for eg... very lazy to mention.

fkfkfkfkfk..wait.. i sound really crude these days. i must kick away my bad habit.

i think i rant alot today. somehow, i just feel like ranting on non-stop. wtf. idk what i'm thinking. i feel so bothered by something, but i don't even know what is it!!!! fk lor. i feel like appling for dpa. but then again, i know it won't succeed. so i'm lazy to give it a try and also it isn't my first choice. Plus there were less than 5 people from our class who applied lor. omgomgomg. i cannot believe ley. i thought alot of people will apply ley. but surprisingly, NO!!!!!!!! goshhhhhhh.

i seriously can't stop ranting. fk.

2009-07-16T17:23:00.003+08:00

Ah, shiatxzx; i'm so absent-minded. i kept telling myself i should use my own lappy when i blog so i can put up the pictures, but then again, i kept forgetting. What's worst is, i forgot to bring my wallet today! OMG! i nearly couldn't get to school, ya'know. HAHA.

Currently i have 7 more minutes to tuition. Fk. My temperature went high and low and high and low for today. Damn irritating, cos' it makes me feel uncomfortable. Die, i think i spread my deadly virus to everybody. It seems like lotsa' people from our class are falling sick. I really need to consult my doc soon, but everytime i passby the clinic, it's always close. (Cos' i pass by the clinic almost the same timings everyday) Hoho. Idk when i'll have the time to see my doc. Too lazy to give him a call too. Tsktsk. Let's wait and wait, if the situation deteriorates. Haha.

Oh, luckily i didn't went to buy food/eat out today. Haha. Cos' there's sharkfins' soup at home waiting for me! HOHO. It's yummilicious. The sad thing is that i don't see the fins inside. But it's good, cos' i don't quite like. i think i'm talking crap now. xzxzxzxz

it's spa tomorrow. gosh.

i hate being picked on. idk why my teacher sucks so much. i feel like xzxzxzxzxzxzxz, ya'know!!!!!!!! k the story goes like this, fk ya'know!!!! mr zul asked me to share my plot. fk la. (reading also have my part, sharing also have my part) kay, whatever; i shared lor. it's so expected of him to pick on me everytime. dnjgslfrdinio!!!!! thank god i'm smart enough that i twisted my story to shut his mouth up, else he'll start picking on my mistake. thankgodmanxzxz. you'll never know how irritating it is to be bugged non-stop manxz. how i wish i'm those quiet students that he'll ignore at first sight. i tell that's a blessing manxz. but the people around me are always making me talk/laugh non-stop, how to control? fk sia. i think he should give chances to those who don't talk much. hiakhiak. whatever, damn pissed off. and for another reason, i got damn pissed off. even mrs ong could tell you know!!!!!!!!! fkkkkkkkkkkk! and idk why, i still ended up laughing at her jokes. LOL! is it me who is being very absent minded or is it that i'm just not that pissed afterall. hoho.

thn we went to the hod office at 4. jolyn and i were ramaging through the stuffs there without asking for permissions. lmaos. how much i love being last year in the school. made me recall my last year spent in primary school. haha. i still remembered how often i visit the staff room, having strolls inside for no apparent reason. and idk how i can enter also when we're need to type the pw. LOL. sadly, i can't have strolls in staffrooms anymore, because the staffroom in bukitview is so small. i don't even think it's half the size of my primary school's! nevermind, i still have to learn to love my school. haha. oh, we wrote some stuff into the suggestion box cos' an inspiration came up while we were ramaging through the stuffs in the hod office. hiakhiak. and hopefully, they'll accept our suggestion ^.^

then tuition aftermath. thankgod it's over now. new tutor again. how many times i've changed my tutors? i seriously can't remember. i feel like changing the current one because he speaks in a monotone manner which makes me feel like sleepinggg.. but..aiyah.. he can teach i think...

2009-07-15T18:40:00.002+08:00

fkyoufkyoufkyoufkyoufkyoufkyoufkyoufkyou
hohohohohohohohohohohohohoho ^.^

I think i was on tough luck yesterday. I've been telling myself since morning when i stepped out of the house already. Hoho. And it really turns out to be. I think the best thing that happened yesterday was plurking! HAHA. I've been having lots of fun lately, plurking non-stop. HAHA. I feel so addicted to it now. Omg. Hoho. I've been neglecting lots of work because of it, but thankfully i'll still do my best to complete everyday's work.

Today seems like nsjiofhurioksjnsmlidkjsn to me. Idk. Lately.. Oh, i have one new quotation, i just thought of it, i think i came across it before if not i paraphrase some of the quotes together: If you think your friends will always wait for you forever, you need to do some reflection.
Idk, it seems meaningful. A way for motivation because human are always influenced by the people around and mainly: their friends. Henceforth, all of us should really do some reflection. Time for reflection for the ndp thing too. Hoho. (should i do or not)

safnsaejkflnsdijernhgfirhfjdoierjf
Crapxzxzxzxzxzxzxzx

I like the first song - you are not alone, MJ

2009-07-14T18:06:00.002+08:00

I wanna' upload something! But it's in another lappy. Gosh.

How stupid..

It's just a casual remark, and it turn into a topic. HAAHAA. If so, then it's best! I'm gonna' past every possible remark, i can on fb, when i'm unhappy. Hoho! Anyway, i've already expected that whatever it got post out, the school is bound to know. So since i know already, obviously why would i bother. It doesn't bother me, cos' i'm just stating facts. If the teachers don't watch their words carefully, of cos' it'll turn out to be very harsh on us. So i'm actually helping the society; helping to improve the services. HAHA. Crapxzxz.

I think i'll fall sick soon ): SPA, this friday = doom day(?) I hope not.

there's something i wanna' say, but i forgot. i'll update again when i remember. Zzz.

2009-07-11T11:11:00.003+08:00

Oral was yesterday. i think i ruinned it all. Fk.

it was supposed to be easy, but fk, i was stunned immediately at the first question. Already at the losing end from the start. Definitely a waste for me. If it weren't for the first question, i'd prolly... Tsktsk. I went for oral despite feeling unwell and having fever, tsktsk. Then at last, it's ruinned. So saddening ley. Nevermind, i did my best. Hoho!

Suddenly, i feel like i've been struggling for 24092378209820years..

2009-07-09T18:48:00.002+08:00

Too long ago..

Is it very long ago since my last update? I don't think so right, hoho. Kay, see i'm studying very hard but i also play very hard ^.^

My temperature became very crucial these few days, i think if it continues to be this high, mean i really have h1n1 already ley. Howxzxzxz? So tomorrow, i must pray hard my temperature cannot jump high high anymore, cos' it's MT Oral tomorrow. Gosh, i very nervous ley. I haven't did my preparation. Omg. I just realised that too.

Oh yah, MJ passed away. If his death was part of the doc's fault, then his life's damn wasted lor. And Paris is so cuteeee, yet sucha' thing befall on her. Kay, idk MJ, so no comments for everything else.

Pray hard it's an easy topic tomorrow for me pleaseeeeeeeee, cos' today's one i have alot to say leyyyyyyyyyyyyyyy. But it's not for meeeeeee D;

2009-07-07T08:37:00.003+08:00

How stupid..

I feel so stupid now manxzxz. I woke up so early for nothing, i went to school for nothing because in less than 30minutes, i was sent home. Wtf. I could have my beauty sleep till 10 lor. What a waste of time to wake up so early and prepare for school. I was burning in school but when i reached home, it drop all the way to normal. Laughs. I think i really hate school alot. Don't think i'll go to the doctor today. Too lazy to go out now. Hoho.

It's a good thing to have an extra holiday, now i can try to complete my work as much as possible because i've got so many incomplete work. Ohno..

2009-07-05T15:56:00.005+08:00

No news is good new(?)
I hope so..

Just webcam with the bottlegirl and showed her my precious love one. Haha, don't jealous ah~ Haha. I feel very random now, idk what should i post.

Veryvery bored.
I don't like being bugger ):
I'm gg to study at least 10hours a day now. Heihei.

I'm gg to do my work now.

Math&Science these few days.. I think i'm improving ^.^

2009-07-03T21:08:00.008+08:00

Getting out of hand

idk idk idk idk idk idk idk idk
f you
f your mother

(To get myself out of trouble)
Hoho!

f you

2009-07-01T17:14:00.002+08:00

Been a long time

Idk how long was it when we gathered together to have so much fun. Kay, definitely less than half a year. Haha. It's the sweetest thing to have your relatives close around you. The best: you even know your relatives' relatives. Like no link. Lol.

So on Saturday, after tuition, i took the train to pioneer and met up with Judith and Justin. Walked over to aunt's place. Stayed overnight at there. Badminton session on saturday night and we freaked out the small one, Bryan, till he burst into tears. F. funny. Cos' he was just acting all along, very cheeky lil' one. Then on Sunday, brought Bryan over to Jurong Point for his tuition. He's only 6, and he's attending tuition now. Haha. Then went back to Pioneer Mall for breakfast from Macdonalds' at home. Then fetched Bryan after his tuition. Shopped around with him and Judith. Bought him some food and other stuff. Then back home. Badminton session together again including Austin and Rui Ting. Played until my body ache like siao. Haha. Then dinner and back home.

F. monday. Seriously hate it when school reopens. Cos' there's this ass who keeps picking on me. I think i'll have high blood pressure very soon ley, if he keeps irritating me everyday. Omg. New sseating arrangement, which sucks thoroughly. Simply because i fall asleep easily and i cannot hear/see clearly. I already voiced out, but still... Hate him. Now.. i think i don't talk much anymore. Because i don't wanna' end up him coming to talk to me cos' whenever i start talking, he's bound to irritate me. That's why, i think i'm sick now. F. i think i have h1n1. Lol. Because too many symptoms are popping out suddenly. My temperature is running damn close to the fever temp. everyday. F.

Samantha' birthday on Tuesday. Had a gift for her. Hopefully, she likes it ^.^ Then kfc after school... Crap. I took the same bus as my tutor and went to my house together. Haha. I feel asleep during tuition too. Simply too tired, i guess.

Today, badminton session after school for 1.5h or lesser. Then running at stadium and back home now. I have alot of homework to be completed asap. Shiatxzxzx.

2009-06-27T11:10:00.001+08:00

(friday, 3july2009)

Kay, i know i grumble alot. HAHA! But actually, i thought for a second; i wasn't quite bothered about how i was being complained/accused. I was more interested to know if it's my fault or not. My fault for having migraine? I cannot control ley. Nevermind, idk if it's my fault also.

LOL! My migraine acted up again. Thus, i gotta' learn to control my emotions. HAHA! I can't laugh or get angry or else i'll only worsen my migraine at the moment. F. Very tiring. And i haven't taken my medication too, what's the point of taking when you're gonna' die soon. Only left with 2 sets now, thus, i gotta' save it for emergencies; like seconds near death. LOL. Kay, very random. I think i cracked my skull last night due to the bang on my forehead. F. That probably explains why my migraine has gone from bad to worse, and i got a complaint because of it. F funny right. i can really laugh my ass off lor. Nevermind, i won't explain since i know what went wrong and my reasons will always be claime 'lame', so why should i bother. Omg, i sound very ... Whatever~ Yes, i'm still grumbling. HAHA!

i need to go out asap lahhhhhhh! if not i'll die of boredom. Shiatxzx i still got a lot of work undone. Omgxzxzxzxzxzxzxz.

2009-06-27T10:48:00.004+08:00

When it looks simple,

Was out in the noon yesterday to Clementi with Mondre. Lunch at the mall there and then took the bus to Uncle Jason's place. Lol. Used the lappy there and played retarded games. OMG! Lol. Then dad came over to fetch me and we went for dinner! ^.^ Omg, f. niceeeeeeee. Clams+squids+fish+bbq wings+satays=sumptuous dinner! HAHA.

Having tuition later and then going over to Eileen's place.

Pooop. I'm so bored right nowwwwwwwwwwwww. I haven't been on task lately. I've been spending my days away playing and relaxing the last few days of the holidays. Haha. Hopefully, the petition work yea? Cos' i really need more holidays to go my work. HAHA! *Prayshard*

2009-06-26T11:44:00.002+08:00

Hoho.. ^.^ I'm so happy, getting new lappy in a few days time ^.^ Like.. finallyyyyyy ^.^ Gonna' put my current lappy at Mom's workplace once my new lappy comes ^.^ And hopefully, the two new lappies will be for me (fat hope) But i can still use both ^.^ Hohoho.

I want to play sims 3!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! ): I regret not getting it yesterday D; Omgomgomg!

Going out soooooooooooooooooooon ^.^

2009-06-24T16:23:00.006+08:00

Veryveryveryveryveryveryveryveryveryvery bored laaaaaaaa~

I still have so many uncomplete assignments lor! Crapzxz. Now i'm very bored also.. I got an entertainer to entertain me just now. Fk. i don't know even know the person somemore! Haha. Whatever~

I just realised sis' collegues are getting weirder one after another. They're all adding me up on fb now. Zzz.. Lol. I only see them several times a year and only had a dinner with them once and breakfast several times. They're f. funny manzxz!

I feel like going overseas ley. Or at least stayover at somebody's place. Staying at home is no fun! D; Tsktsk~

Sometimes i think i hate you ley. You only come when you're in need, and go when you can have fun. Really sucks, to know you manzxz. But i don't have a choice, i think. At least i can ignore at times. You only search for people you need and dump them when you don't need. You make people hate you at times. And idk why you're still ... (Maybe i'm too mean to say this, but it's kind of a fact to me)
Whatever; you like or don't like, it's your choice. I won't bother ^.^

Shiatzxzx....
I feel like getting a LV Neverfull MM (Monogram) or a Gucci Wristlet. Wtf. Money fly to me please. I can't get any of these at the moment because i need to get a new lappy firstttttttttt... Life sucks when i'm short of cash. And life always sucks!
It's wonderful being a millionaire. Then i could go Fiji too. Haha.

2009-06-23T13:25:00.005+08:00

The above quotation i forgot who i took it from. I think it's either Stuart, Shun Jian or Joel. (One of these great people) LOLLL!

I have a lotttttttttttttttttttttt of stuff that i wanna' do/get!

I need to complete my assignments!
I wanna' go shopping!
I wanna' get a new pencil case!
I wanna' get a new bag!
I wanna' get a pair of canvas shoes!
I wanna' get a VAIO-P!
I wanna' get a new phone!
I wanna' get a new haircut!
I wanna' catch alot of movies too!
I think that's all for now! (The more important ones)

I wanna' get alot alot alot of newwwwwwwwww stuffs ley!
(But i need money) D: Anybody working now, wanna' sponser me some money for shopping?
XD (You know i'll love you to bits and pieces!) Haha.
I miss being back in school playing around and studying hard at the same time. But i can afford to go back school now, as in, i haven't completed my revision. If i return to school now, means, i won't have enough time to complete my revision as i'll be flooded with schoolwork ): It's really hard to manage ): Plus i get lotsa' money when i go school from my allowance! Heihei. Now it's holidays, and dad says he sees me studying at home daily and not gg shopping so he doesn't wanna' give me much just in case i order some fastfood delivery and turn into a fat pig before school reopens. Wtf. Besides, i've been drinking ice milo several times a day with lotsa' milk inside. That's the reason why dad doesn't wanna' give me more allowance because without exercise, the fats accumulate over time D; My life is so sad right.

If i've not done any tys work, i think i would have completed all the work by now lor. What a waste. Tsktsk

2009-06-22T20:59:00.004+08:00

The higher you pin your hopes, the lower you drop. This is expected. So, we all pinned for extended holidays; perhaps most people, i suppose. Unfortunately, it's not gonna' extend! Wtf. Later, we end up suffering with the stupid H1N1. The government trust that they could control the situation, Zzz, but who knows. An additional one week holiday wouldn't kill right? Kay, now i have alot more work to do. Not because i was lazy previously lor, but because of this H1N1 thingay, nobody knows when school will close(?) So those teachers in school confirm flood us with lots of stuffs and before they do that; i have to move at a faster pace for my revision. Logical right? See, i speak senses. I think i should make a phone call to Azri(?) - Forgot his name, to speak to his dad. Haha. (I wish) Kay, i doubt many will know who is he, nevermind, what's most important is that i know. Lol. But, first, i gotta' go dig the numbers. And i doubt i can find. Tsktsk~

So.. the moral is: Don't love Singapore so much, because she may not love you in times of crisis.
Haha. Kay, whatever. It's crap. (Don't listen to my words)
They said: No matter what, life must go on for Singaporeans.
Thus, school resume as usual. Fk.
I hate this.

It would be best if i have H1N1 now lor, plus i don't know that i have. Then i return to school as per normal, and nobody would quarantine me because i have no records to overseas. Haha! Then i'll pass the diseases all around. LOL. And everybody would regret for not extending the holidays! ^.^ Idk why i'm so clever leyzxz, and so happy over this. Haha.
Kay, whatever. (It's so not gonna' happen) D: Whatever the case, i've been down on flu+cough+migraine+sorethroat for quite some time. It's been on and off all these while. So.. if i had H1N1, i'd be lying dead right now. Probably long dead already la. I nearly died this morning from heatstroke+anaemia. LOLLL! Sadly, i still survive until now! Haha.
I feel so crappy right now.
Probably because i'm mad with the latest news. Fk.
I really hate this.

2009-06-21T17:42:00.002+08:00

Very veli beri beli bedi boring boling leyzxzxzxzx!

Idk how many cups of chawanmushi i had at home today. Lol. Weather damn hot somemore. Hate the weather, hate the mosquitos, hate my sweet blood! F. everything lorzxz/ Made me so pissed off with every lil. thing.

I haven't been on task lately, been idling around/slacking. Hiakhiak. Caught 27 Dresses and Game Plan again just now on StarMovies. I still remember who i caught these movies with lorzxz. Somemore with the same person. Laughs. But, the weather changes just like the people around. Maybe(?)maybe not(?) Whatever it is, i'm still ME! Haha. Crapzxzx.

I wanna' laugh my ass off over a certain thing. Only some people know why, hiakhiakhiak. F. funny, if you knew it. I've been laughing over it since yesterday when i realised it. Lol!

Been to Uncle Jason's place yesterday for Bbq, mygod, so many strangers there. Lots of rela-relatives didn't turn up, i guess. Rela-relatives - because they are distant relatives. In fact, my parent's cousins. Lol. Yet, we're still kindda' close ^.^ Anyway, i heard Unc' just discharge from TTS, if i'm not wrong he's just back from some country. Definitely somee H1N1 countries. Laughs. He went to hos. not because of this communicable disease lahzxz, instead was some operation. Idk too. Anyway, i just realised i used to walk past the TTS communicable center whenever i go for doc. 's appointment lor. Zzz. Thankfully, doc. 's appointment is completed. Finally, went through the full course myself ^.^ Veryvery good leyzxz.

I really veryveryveryvery bored now siaaaaaaa.

2009-06-20T14:25:00.002+08:00

So sad didn't went out with those ass yesterday at Sentosa ): Seems like they had fun! Haha, sadly i was over at cousin's place. So gave it a miss. Haha

Flag day today. F. tiring. Bbq later, i think. Idk if i'm still going.
Zzz.

Hateyou./

2009-06-19T19:55:00.002+08:00

Back to school on Thursday. I have alot of questions unclear lor. Clarify halfway, then ask me come again next time. Zzz.. Studied with Yan Shan in school all the way till 3plus. Then back home, prepared and left to cousin's place. Stayover at their house and studied together today at CoffeeBean. Wow, we definitely have alot to catch up! We spent alot of time talking and exchanging lots of stuffs in our lives. Haha. Probably it's been damn long since we met up. Not quite long i think, several weeks only. Haha. Bbq tomorrow! ^.^ But flag day comes first. Zzz..

I have alot of tasks uncompleted!!!! ):

2009-06-17T10:36:00.007+08:00

I haven't been going for shopping for a longlong time already leyzxz! Ohmyzombie, i'm so proud of myself lor, i can actually resist all the temptations around me. Haha, kay. I'm bluffing myself. Actually, nothing catches my eye, that's why i haven't been shopping. GSS is here, but nothing nice to buy ley. Plus i'm f. broke now lor. I don't even know where all my money went sia, for one meal at home then 10bucks plus flew away already. I hate the holiday la! I really think i need to go on a major shopping spree already! Need to add more companions into my wardrobe! Haha. I need to go find extremely shopaholics or else i wouldn't be spending every cent i'm having. But most importantly now, i need to find money. Haha. I shall ask daddy for more allowance. Hiakhiak. I hate recession lor, make people lose money in shares, in directly make me have to cut down on my shopping trip. Life sucks~ D. I feel very random today just blabbering non-stop. I think it's because i haven't been talking for a long time. Haha. No, i haven't been using the lappy for quite some time. All these while, i've been using my IPod for fb, twitter, plurk, myspace, msn, email..etc.. See.. that's why i love my IPod so much ^.^ At the same time, i hate it too. Firstly, it causes distraction when i'm studying! Secondly, the apps always crashes nowadays. Ever since RJ told me about his crashing fb app, mine started crashing. Zzz.

Somebody intro me new online shopping web ley. I think i should start with online shopping since i'm fking lazy to step out of the house. Oh, i think i'll be shopping for new lappy this week. But it's not even fun when it comes to shopping for gadgets lor. It's boring to just sit there and decide which specs you want..etc stuff.. Ohyah, i saw the phone that i wanna' get already. Touch diamond 2! Finally out! Anybody wanna' buy for me? I'm still considering. Will most probably be getting it few months later, cos' i don't want my handset to crash shortly. Once bitten, twice shy. Must wait for second batch out first then can buy if not confirm regret x20597234098430. LOL!

There's school tomorrow ): It's already into the third week of the holidays, yet we still have to return back to school. Tsktsk.. And because of this, i think i'll have to forgo the trip to Sentosa ); Intended to join all those stupid ass down at there, but tsktsk.. Guess i won't be going. Most probably going to cousin's place for stayover instead(?) Oooh! There's BBQ this Saturday. Omg, i've been craving for bbq wings lately. Idk why, and my parents don't want to bother me already, simply because they're too lazy to drive out and search the bbq wings for me D; Saturday must faster come, hopefully got bbq wings to eat! ^.^ It's always best to have BBQs at Uncle J's place because we don't have to bbq the fooood ourselves! We just sit by the pool and play/talk/eat. Omg, really can't wait for it already. But.. there's CIP on the same day. Hopefully i'm in the morning shift.

i shall shop a lil now before continue studying.

I thought to myself: With/without me, it doesn't make a difference to you / affects you; so why did i even bother?

Re: I think i don't play a part/scene in your life.
I must remind myself to leave out of other's affairs. Why bother.

2009-06-15T11:54:00.002+08:00

Omg. Big breakfast via mcdelivery today again. I'm seriously damn broke right now lahhh. Thankfully i still have my allowance to help me survive. Lol.

Was at PC Show yesterday at Suntec Convention Hall, omg, lots of people. But as compared to last year, still not quite. Level 4 was rather squeezy, but at level 6, there's only half the amount of people. Bought new printer and some other miscellaneous stuff. Intended to get new lappy there, but level 4 was really damn squeezy. So decided to give it a miss at the fair and get it from the retails instead since we'll be served better too. Haha. Headed to Tampines after that and dine in at Manpuku. Omg, i seriously love the teriyaki salmon there manzxzx. Ohmyzombie. I had teriyaki salmon twice yesterday at 2 different places. Lol. Headed to Courts aftermath, as Mommy decided to check out the lappy there. F. I think i really have no fate with all the laptops manzxz. The other time, the colour i wanted went out of stock. This time, the one that i want hasn't enter the market yet. F. They only brought it out at the PC Show but still not out in retails yet. Wtf. Hopefully it'll be out this week, else i have to choose again ): Actually i'm still kindda' in a dilemma whether or not to purchase a new lappy since my current one still works well. Although it doesn't really matter with the current one, but i'm just afraid that i won't love and care the new lappy once i get it. I'm afraid i'll treat like junk once again then i'll go search my other models once i get sick and tired of it. Crapzxz.

Oh, go google on Tony Robbins! He's cool! Reallyreally cooolzxz. As in, his NLP talks, just like Stuart Tan. You google on both of them. Haha.
Okayzxz, lameeeezxz.

2009-06-14T11:37:00.002+08:00

Omg, have been eating too much lately. Mcdelivery for breakfast on Friday and dinner last night. Omgomgomg. This is sooo bad. Lol. Definitely gaining alot of weight this vacation. Later gonna' go PC fair, hopefully i can get what i want ^.^ Must start to lose weight intensively now.. But how ):

I'm satisfied with the progress i've made yesterday, i did quite alot, i think. Kay, no, i didn't do much actually. Lol. Just several units in the tys and completed one assignment only ))):