Friday, August 7, 2009
I need to rant badly! I'm very pissed now, very angry now, very agitated now! All the irritated and angry emotions, you can ever think of! Continue more when i'm home later... Need time to cool down a minute. Am on my way home now :)
Time: 5.23pm
Finally home.
Yes, i'm still pissed! (No bad/mean words anymore!)
the school is really getting irritating every now and then. i don't care if you're gonna' read what i'm gonna' say. i just need to rant really badly. you're not me, so you wouldn't understand how !#$%^&!%$# it feels la. by saying the school, i don't literally mean the school or the majority of the people there. just probably the minority, yes, the working industry, yes the tertiary industry. not the education system or whatever la. it's the people!
they use mean words on me! it's so !#$%^#%! really cannot stand them, y'know. try being treat this way, and you'll get what i mean. i tell it's totally so irritating. they accused you/maligned you for no apparant reason you know. idk what is wrong. my fault or what?!?!? v. unreasonable you know. and furthermore, it's so insulting, insulting my character as though i've got no integrity. hello?! it's just 1hour of detention class i owe, do i have the need to lie. furthermore, the principal, the councillor were my witnesses too you know! i feel like demanding an apology, seriously, it feels so insulting! !#$%^%$ but even having the small appology, i doubt it'll help anything. it's as though somebody killed your love on and then just apologise to you. is it gonna' help in any way? !#$$%$&% anyway, this is not the main reason in fact. idk, but this matter just made me feel more irritated. something wrong with me is it?
every little matter always sound as though it's my fault, y'know. at the beginning i'll feel, i'm not in the wrong at all. then gradually when i keep replaying the scene in my mind, i start it feel everything's my fault. my fault for being on earth, being in singapore, being in this school. this is so... !##$% get what i mean, maybe no. kay, nvm. just needa' rant.
aiyah, in simple terms, they are unreasonable! and it's not the first time already.
And then some times, these matters drive me crazy. cos' they can even make the black turn white. thus, i'll feel like committing suicide, i'm serious y'know. but nobody in the right mind, would go do something like this, of cos'. it's so.. crazy. k, ranting on isn't helping. i'm making myself more pissed. and now, my appendix pain is acting up. so who shall i thank? those who accuse me right? so what you've wronged me by accident? don't you think you should actually watch your words properly in future? an apology back won't help either cos' you could prolly kill the person indirectly cos' it's really an insult, fyi.
k, i go have my pills before i pass out. yes, everything that turn out today, is the result of everything that has happened. else, i wouldn't even be taking my pills constantly. think i'll take up prev. doc.'s advice to go to the N.C. at the end of this year. lest, everything turns to the worst.
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